the sun is laughing all the time

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 21:38:30 GMT

As soon as Solomon read the inscription, the smile vanished from his face. The jeweler had written three Hebrew letters on the gold band: _gimel, zayin, yud_, which began the words "_Gam zeh ya'avor_" -- "This too shall pass." At that moment Solomon realized that all his wisdom and fabulous wealth and tremendous power were but fleeting things, for one day he would be nothing but dust.

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 12:37:03 GMT

i wonder when i will stop dying

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 21:15:57 GMT

me:

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 21:33:31 GMT

there are buttons on my keyboard saying "home"
and "end"
and they dont fucking work.

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 16:36:21 GMT

"in one cubic centimeter vacuum with nothing in it whatsoever, and that includes the one in my hand, would you remove all the air and everything from there, theres enough energy in that one cubic centimeter. based on e=mc2, to create the entire universe that can be seen through the hubble telescope... thats just beyond our imaginations... that means that in the big bang, which i dont believe ever happened, the amount of energy that was create to create all of the stars and planets and galaxies, everything we can see out there, thats only the amount thats in one cubic centimeter. zero point has been absolutely established by the united states now. the department of energy showed that it is real and they are now giving patents on it. theyve given at least nine patents on zero point technology. in other words, you can create a machine that will pull infinite amounts of energy from nothing. and its not perpetual motion, perpetual motion is the concept and idea that this is a closed system, but the idea of zero point says its not a closed system, theres other dimensional levels and they are all accessible through any point whatsoever. so in my hand is all dimensions that exist. and the next dimension from this one which we consider the third, the fourth dimension, has so much energy in it, that if we would just use it we would not have to worry about oil and coal and things like this, we would have all the energy we would ever need."

watch this;

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4217922894127920940&q=sacred+geometry&total=351&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=0

i always thought mathematics were useless. but this type of math, geometry, is gently urging its way into my system.

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 20:23:51 GMT

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 23:15:38 GMT

oh oh
life
i burst these dark bubbles with
loud music and happy orbs

i take a bus to tonight and find out i am ahead of the world
but

i know where i am supposed to be
i know where i am going

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 20:34:38 GMT

isla del coco, a destered island

costa rica

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 10:45:40 GMT

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 08:25:22 GMT

im having the best waking dream ever.

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 09:24:21 GMT

today is the best day ever

all my sins are forgiven

for andrew;

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 17:07:52 GMT

"my attempt to leave the earthly plane"

i had arranged everything i had told myself to. i had written a long goodbye letter. i had cleaned my house, i had paid all my bills and was completely ready for the transfer to the other side. tonight i wanted to end my life. there was nothing that connected me to the earth any more. i was in a happy mood, like the way you feel before going on a trip or on a holiday. i drank one final glass of red wine and very consciously smoked one last cigarette. i washed my earthly body one final time, put on clean clothes, and took one last look at my house - everything looked okay. i could leave everything like this.
i laid down on bed and announced to micro that this was the moment i was going to leave my body and disconnect the silver thread. i switched off the light and lied on my back. after one hour i was still wide awake. apparently my spirit did not want to break loose or micro was blocking it. i figured if this did not work i had to find another solution. i told my heart; i want you to slow down the bloodstream and stop. i waited. i got very calm. slowly but surely my arms and legs got cold, but i stayed wide awake. suddenly a voice said to me; if this is what you truly want, then you have to be determined and keep pushing. but then you will be born another time.
shit! to be reincarnated again! that was the last thing i wanted. i reprogrammed the process in a reversed order. i rubbed my arms and legs until they were warm again and focused on living on on the earthly plane. i was not very enthusiastic, but as i had already done this for 34 years i did not feel like starting over from zero again at all.

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 12:58:06 GMT

een situatie is onderhevig aan wat er gebeurd, en niets anders

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 10:04:00 GMT

time, stand still.

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 20:33:41 GMT

depersonalization

im sorry

im not

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 12:51:55 GMT

"It may appear as well, that we are being “invaded” by lower vibrating elements that are crowding out all of the old 3D reality manifestations. Things, places, and situations that we used to hold dear have taken on a new, strange, and almost lost meaning as they seem to have been replaced by something foreign and unpleasant."

everything changes...

(for the better, my heart says)

Sun, 20 May 2007 21:19:58 GMT

love takes many forms. look around you.
steeds voelt het alsof dit het moment is waarop ik iets uitzinnigs moet schrijven. iets dat alles wat er gebeurd perfect omvat zodat mijn ervaring in jouw gewaarzijn neer kan dalen. maar het is stil wanneer ik naar binnen keer en er iets uit wil halen voor hier. er is wel een soort van ruis, een zacht gezoem. de aanwezigheid van al mijn gedachtes, ongeordend, die constant in elkaar over lopen en mogelijke combinaties maken. geen overemotionele uitbarstingen, geen chaos, geen hoofdkramp en hartenzeer, maar alleen maar flitsen van wat er kan gaan gebeuren. ik denk dat het mijn taak is om even diep adem te halen en hier in te duiken en te kiezen voor wat ik werkelijk wil. ook al zullen dat misschien niet de makkelijkste dingen zijn. alles kan. want dit zijn bijzondere tijden. zonder tijd. hoe dan ook. ik kom dichterij. steeds een stukje. en als ik je aanraak. dan zal ik het weten.

Thu, 03 May 2007 21:42:41 GMT

its storming outside
and i need to stay calm

that is why it is storming outside,
because i need to learn to stay calm.

and face the facts. and not give in to the pulls from the dark side. from where they say things like, should be would be could be. and why why why is it not.
~~should~~ be
~~would~~ be
~~could~~ be

so simple.

im smiling.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 22:38:31 GMT

now my hair is the color of blood

or the color of wine

(is blood)

todays conclusion is;
i need to become me
before anything else

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 11:26:30 GMT

i want a love so deep
it completely ruins me

right now im only collecting bits and pieces of things i think i recognize and i stash them up in a corner of my being and sometimes i pick one out and toss it about and eventually always put it back on the pile.

i believe that rather than having to deal with a half heart, half alive and half imagination, id rather be dead and out of my body. move out of my flesh and watch myself from above. and watch everything else all at once. and watch nothing at all but just colors and void. colors and void.

find that one line in between. that place of balance. of non existence.

to die whilst being in this life.

and not to wait for, but to be until, everything ever dreamed of comes shooting back in rays of pure perfection, love finally fully embodied, awakening this heart.

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 14:57:58 GMT

i have to break these shells
not by kicking into them
or smashing them to pieces
but by letting them grow to completion
until the inside is ready to come out

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 09:35:12 GMT

always worlds apart, even when they are right beside me. hes telling me hes going to have breakfast together with his family this morning. and i think, what kind of world is that? i dont even eat. im so far off from all. all that. sometimes it feels like this. the city, the streets, the houses, these lives we live within them. and work, and people working, in offices, in shops, in buildings, then going back to their houses. walking on the streets only to get out of there. away from outside. i want to climb trees. fall on the grass. walk barefoot. sleep beneath the stars. chat with the moon. carry a black bird on my shoulder.

and not seek anything.

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 11:36:49 GMT

"If anything is an effort, we can simply declare that we are unwilling to participate, and then wait for the effortless manifestation to arrive….and it will.

...

And we can add another twist to this scenario….the roadblock energy. This scenario can occur if we are trying to manifest something very big, not the smaller connections and supports we need for our store-fronts, for instance, but the bigger and permanent manifestations. In many cases, we are being delayed or blocked because the energies are simply not yet in place for these manifestations to occur. Things are still being lined up. These manifestations will occur in March, when everything is finally ready. Things will be different for us then, and we will be able to manifest much more then, and have more information and things in place, than we do now. It will serve us much better to wait, and so we are being blocked in some areas."

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Thu, 30 Nov 2006 21:30:51 GMT

mijn huid is geolied. ik glibber alle kanten op. veelal voel ik mij als iets wat op knappen staat. zoiets als een zwakke ballon die haar inhoud moeilijk binnen kan houden en ervan droomt luchtledig te zijn.

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 20:10:36 GMT

i want to lay in your arms and stare at the cracks in my ceiling
these^ ones are the ones on my wall but this house has many many secrets
i have many secrets to tell
life unfolds
i keep the noise down so i can listen
hear the wind speak her brilliance
reckless and bold she goes and i let her take me sometimes
even within these walls
i let her have her ways with me
and all the elements rejoice
possessed with life like me